"If I quieted the voices in my head I would face the day with nothing to write."

“The time to begin writing an article is when you have finished it to your satisfaction. By that time you begin to clearly and logically perceive what it is that you really want to say.” Mark Twain.

“And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don't believe in magic will never find it.”
― Roald Dahl
Key:
G-Unit=Grandpa
FLS=Favorite Little Sister
Sassy Red head=Shana
True Friend=Laura
Mermaid/Slo/Tripod/Chickas=Shannon 1

Spanish Princess/Tripod/Chicka/Vette =Yvette
#61=Youngest son
Mickey Blue Eyes=Oldest son.
BFTP (Blast from the past)/The last Frontier=gone
Big Jim as himself
Vitamin C as himself
G-Man=Garth/Bossman.

Nick as himself

Monday, April 22, 2013

The Mesh of a sirens song.


Armitage Siren

Sometimes it's not about the money.
Sometimes it is about the quality of a man.

Every person has bad and good qualities. And sometimes it's about whether two people can mesh and make it work in the bad times. For the last three months, maybe more I have had this man pursuing me that is not Nick.

I have had a large amount of pressure placed on me, about what and who might be better for me. I have done some thinking and today I'm being honest with myself about what and who I want in my life.

Nick is a drinker. Nick is young. But he is a good man. He does not come with a lot of money and he sorely tries my patience sometimes. But we mesh well. He loves to have fun, he makes me laugh my ass off. He loves to eat good food. He likes to cook, garden, read. He is smart and educated. He is thrilled to watch a Disney movie. He is watching Downton Abbey with me. I just like the guy.
Actually I love the guy.

So when there is pressure about "this so called better man for me" from the locals. Is it really true? How does anybody else know what is really best for me, besides me.

Today I changed my haircolor, to a deep brown red... Have you ever had the experience of or heard the term a sirens calling.. siren song? The term "siren song" refers to an appeal that is hard to resist but that, if heeded, will lead to a bad conclusion. Well this evening I walked downtown to get the mail and Nick was at the Pasttime so I stopped in and said hi. He was happy to see me. Everybody was happy to see me. He had to make some phone calls and stepped outside, I had a package to deliver and stepped outside as well and mentioned that I was going to deliver it. I walked up to the Eagles and the person that I was going to deliver the package to happened to be driving down the street. I handed him the package and he drove along side me as I walked. Flirting. Suddenly from behind me there is another man hollering at me and following me. Flirting. I walk back to Nick and have all these men following me. Is it the change in hair color? 

Back into the bar and it is suddenly a gaggle of men, trying to grab my attention. I blush and become flustered as everybody makes comments about the men following me as well.  Tonight, thinking back on it, reflecting on it I think of the term siren, I don't care much for the "bad end" part of it, so I also think about other ways to follow..dogs chasing a scent and bee's to honey. 

But in all honesty what made these men follow and pursue me so blatantly when I'm taken?

Nick left with me and he is the one I want to follow me.

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

You don't become a legend without a fight.



I have been watching the new series from the History Channel, Vikings. Pretty good shit. That is one of the time periods I enjoy exploring and reading about. The show is filmed in Ireland as well. It's also cool that I can watch it free on Hulu when I don't have regular television.

Between work, yard and the man I have been pretty busy this spring. We have been making plenty of babies...Our joke... Since we will most likely not have children together. In my dining room placed on the floor is a litter of containers growing garden starts. "Our babies."
This week they have just gone nuts. Yesterday we had to move the beans and peas to bigger pots and if the weather is good the kids are put outside to play.

Brussel Sprouts
Beans
Peas
Strawberries
Blackberries
Rasberries
Basil
Thyme
Oregano
Spinach
Cucumber
Sunflower

These are the ones I can think of without getting up to look. Nick has also built and installed two of the four raised beds we have planned. I have always enjoyed gardens. Just never have I done one with quite so much precision, planning and work.

Nick heads out to Alaska in just a short while. So we are trying to get all this done before he leaves. In my neighborhood there are many gardens. I can walk down the sidewalk or the alley and see many ideas and locations. In recent years my yard had become the host to wilderness. Slowly we have tamed the beast. Somebody asked me recently..what are you going to do when it's done? What will you do with your time?

"Maintenance... but also some relaxing in it."

The plan is to have barbeques, parties and live music on the starpad.