Sap

Holy holy, that last post was pure and sappy. But hey I guess it was what I was feeling that day. Today I'm thrilled with my new office and the desire to finish Curador. Took a picture of the new office after making #61 a healthy breakfast of scrambled eggs, toast and hash browns. He spent the night and we spent more time looking for a movie to watch then taking the time to watch it.

Lovely morning in the hood. Mt. Baldy is still casting off cool breezes till the snow melts, but the day is sunny and I'm writing this blog from my house and even with the panic of budget deficit and muttering the only thing I can think of "God will provide." I'm absolutely thrilled to be in my own digs with my stuff surrounding me.

This is the third weekend in my house and I have one more full day in it, before I have to make that bittersweet trek back to the desert. Today's agenda is to write, deep clean, maybe do some more yard work. It's daunting to look at all the projects I really need to work on; my house needs painted, the yard needs a serious amount of work, staining needs to be done and then more staining needs to be done, wood floors need to be installed and then some more staining needs to be done.

The brisk mountain air makes me excited and tired all in the same breath. It's good to be home. Life has come full circle and yes the answers lie here. The big question of the day yesterday was; is my intuition of feeling all these emotions towards a man, intuition or a portent of understanding him and myself better and finally coming full circle. I know that I cannot live without him in my life he is to good of a friend and we have been writing for months now but will that change or just be what it is.

It just happens.