"If I quieted the voices in my head I would face the day with nothing to write."

“The time to begin writing an article is when you have finished it to your satisfaction. By that time you begin to clearly and logically perceive what it is that you really want to say.” Mark Twain.

“And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don't believe in magic will never find it.”
― Roald Dahl
Key:
G-Unit=Grandpa
FLS=Favorite Little Sister
Sassy Red head=Shana
True Friend=Laura
Mermaid/Slo/Tripod/Chickas=Shannon 1
Spanish Princess/Tripod/Chicka/Vette =Yvette
#61=Youngest son
Mickey Blue Eyes=Oldest son.
BFTP (Blast from the past)/The last Frontier=gone
Big Jim as himself
Vitamin C as himself
G-Man=Garth/Bossman.
Nick as himself

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Happy


This morning this first word from my lips was happy. I rolled over in the big bed alone and smiled at the ceiling and said it out loud. "Happy!" And I grinned with joy because I was me again. That happy person I know and love.

Why... I no longer have the rage from that woman stalking us. I no longer have the stress of alcoholism. The fury from him not hearing, understanding or listening to my worries, insecurities and fears are gone.

She is no longer sucking my happiness and joy. He is no longer sucking my happiness and joy.

It has been coming day by day as I get my life and my house back and as I get used to it being just mine again. He texted me Friday evening and it shocked me and sent me in a tailspin. Right back in that place of worry and stress. I believe he had the wrong person or that she sent it, because no one ever responded to it and that also stressed me out.

And this has taught me something: as yesterday was all quiet on the western front in my world and from theirs.

It is better not having them in it.
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