I love that word. In writing today my words.. I called and asked Nick if I could use the essence of him, the part of him that writes, creates and sings songs out of the blue. I want two characters in my book to have that talent. Her Father and the main character. He said he would be honored.
So today I have wrote about that essence, the essence of Nick and his significant and individual talent of laying in bed, sitting on the couch wrapped in a towel, sitting on the toilet while I would take a bath and just write, sing or create a song. One for himself or one for me, pulling it out of thin air and making me smile with how much he liked me or making me laugh my ass off or making my heart melt with the beauty of the music he had in his head.
And this song always makes me think about the music in his head.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I4keD5Qvya4&list=RD9JkdBnT7j2I
Bittersweet another word I just love. The bittersweet memories of those very sweet moments with him are a treasure. And as I fight back longing for those moments while I write and think of him. It is also the bad memories and the heartbreak that is fitting for the somber mood of this book. Bittersweet...Because even though I'm talking about Nick in a blog today as if I saw him. I haven't. After the promise I made myself to have him pick up the rest of his stuff. After changing his address.
I also asked him to not come by anymore to visit, I just don't want to see him.
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