Oh my it has been a while...

But have been busy... so very busy. Moving back into my house, working and commuting, research and writing and maybe falling in love with self, life and hope.

I just finished my favorite authors (Barbara O'Neal's) new book titled the 'The Garden of Happy Endings.' It instilled hope, faith and love for all things in my life. Just a beautiful book she has written, yet once again.

I have been writing and keeping in touch with that someone so special to me, he makes me ache with wanting him in my life so very badly. Everyday upon waking his name is on my lips, every night I whisper an endearment to him so far away. Every night before I fall asleep I wish and say "show me." Only to awake with the feeling of not being shown, but thinking of him and saying his name without dreaming of him. Strange... but so very me.

Long days of figuring things out. Long days of learning to let go of manipulation. Letting things just be and being patient toward living into the answers. They will come.