Poultice

Poultice

I woke this morning with that word on my lips and in my mind. I got out of bed and turned on my computer and then realized what the hell I was doing and made myself go back to bed for a bit.

I lay there between sleep and awake and it was Curador that was consuming me in my sleep last night or early this morning. Poultice. She (Juliet) would make one and the smell would wake him. That was really my thought process. Then suddenly it was for an old lady in her neighborhood and I knew what I needed to write next.

I got out of bed and had my morning cigarette and while my ass sat on the cold concrete steps, more thoughts and ideas crept in. Susanna... I have been long struggling with her as a character suddenly made an appearance. While she was an Aunt... she had been born in 1907. It's possible to be alive at one hundred these people and older are on TV all the time....

Smuckers.
Willard Scott.
The Today show.

All these ideas poured through me. Wow. Researching poultices now and a lot of the time they are made with cabbage. Interesting did not know that...but love how my thoughts of the smell would wake him. And God knows the stinky ass smell of cabbage cooking is pretty eventful.

Also people post on You tube, videos of their family members on the Today's show smuckers jars for their birthdays and found one that was a hundred and five.... it's possible....

Also... I guess the cabbage does not need to be cooked... hmmm.

External applications of raw cabbage can be helpful in encouraging local circulation thus relieving lymphatic congestion and reducing inflammation. They can also help to draw out infected matter and toxins from the body. They are useful in the treatment of arthritis, chest infections, laryngitis, tonsillitis, mastitis, lymphatic blockages, tumors, gangrene, sciatica or other nerve pains and skin infections. 

MAKING A CABBAGE POULTICE
* Finely chop green cabbage sufficient for the area to be treated.
* Place the cabbage in a blender with just enough water to make a thick paste.
* Spread the cabbage paste 1" thick over a piece of cheesecloth, muslin or a clean tea towel. The size should be sufficient to cover the desired part of the body.
* Place the cloth, cabbage side onto the skin, over the area to be treated.
* Cover with a clean, dry cloth then wrap the whole area in a thick towel or wool flannel cloth.
* Leave the cabbage poultice in place for 15 to 60 minutes depending on the severity of the condition and the reactions of the person. It is intended that the treated area should get red and warm but no burning should be allowed to occur. If the person becomes uncomfortable then remove the poultice and wash the area with cool water.
* Have the person lie down and rest for the duration of the application.
* After removing the poultice wash the area with tepid water.
* The cabbage poultice can be repeated two or three times daily as needed, using fresh cabbage each time.




So off and writing again....

Retirement

I took a vacation from Facebook.

It's funny how Facebook is such a teeter-totter in my life. On one hand I enjoy the excepts and snippets of my friends and family and keeping in touch. Then the heavy side of the whole thing flings me back up in the air, the drama and stupid games and most importantly, that I check it and then get sucked in.

It is so time consuming and I needed to focus and retrain myself so I deactivated my account so that I would write. So right now I'm sitting on my seat holding it down and still occasionally get distracted but lighter of heart not having the drama.

Yesterday I went and visited my beloved children. It was a nice trip the day was sunny and as always all things flowed for the activities we needed to accomplish.

Still

Still.

Yet another no from a new position at Amazon and have been reflecting on how I do or don't play the game well. I don't buy into all the self promotion and strange ways of doing it or I'm not good at it. But is it because I don't really want it, because it my heart of hearts I want something else. It is a means that justifies the ends, really I just want a day job that pays the bills is fun and challenging but I want to write in the end so are the other dreams blocking the means? I don't know I'm trying to figure it out.

I just know I'm having a hard time getting to go where I want to go. Tried thinking outside the box and even that is eluding me today with fear and budget nightmares.

The seven week project had me focusing on all the things I want in my life so another setback has me wondering what is the deal? What is hindering me, besides not wanting to self pontificate. It is the bible study class theory... What I think it means, always means something else and when I try to play by the rules, it comes across as not the right attitude or skill and I'm just confused and not sure what the 'correct' answer is and not sure I really fucking care because it is stupid. Because the important shit is to live your life with integrity, work hard and be responsible. I'm all that and those rules should be the ones that count.

So this probably is not making sense what I'm trying to get at... and maybe that is the problem. Let me try again. Leadership skill: Vocally Self Critical. This is a no win situation and answer and I just cannot seem to answer it in a way that works. If you are honest about it, it looks bad. But if you are not honest about it how can you...Leadership skill: Earn Trust of Others or Leadership skill: Have backbone; Disagree and Commit. 

Maybe that is some of the answer... I think it's fucking stupid. Because if you are honest about things that you work on in yourself, you are being honest and can earn the trust of others and that shows backbone and leadership because you can be honest and show integrity. So maybe in my next interview I will get mad and even. I'm going to say I disagree in the asking of this question and that it's a no win situation. While one of my self critical opinions of myself is that I take on too many projects. I finish them in a timely manner and work better under stress and if you don't like that answer, or perceive the answer differently then what I just said...it's because the question was beneath me in the first place because I'm a mature, responsible adult; work hard and pay my bills in a timely manner. Now does that answer the question in a STAR manner?

Nope because I need to add in an example.

Example: Yesterday I got to work on time, Amazon broke in a 100 different ways and I found the time to answer the phone, restart my computer two times to get it to work so that I could help the customers, get the answers I needed for the customers because everything broke, finished my FISH project and attended two meetings while getting my job done and stressing that I had two many projects going and I would not finish them. So I delegated the FISH project back to the FISH team to finish after getting the basic design done for them and then handled all my other projects and completed them ALL in a timely fucking manner.

So now I'm mad and maybe being mad about it gives me the answer to how to play the mother fucking game. RIGHT.

Probably not but will see at the next interview because I'm pissed now. Going to show some backbone.

Wow

Wow, it has been a bit of time since I have posted. I have been busy researching and letting ideas grow for the rewrite of the book after an edit and input from friends and family. Printing today, rereading and plan to finish or start. Finish and Start are the same word in this case. Plan to start the finish of the book.

Also I have embarked on a project of seven weeks. "Calling in "The One": 7 Weeks to Attract the Love of Your Life." It has been an enlightening first week, but the motivation it has provided already.... has been amazing. I have learned so many things about fear, motivation and that just because a certain man drives me nuts and may not be 'my idea of perfect' he could be right for me anyway because of those attributes. Anyhooo. we will see where and who this project brings my life.

A picture of my favorite part of the project this week a collage of all my goals, dreams and desires.

Purging, spring cleaning the mind, heart and life. Also my favorite line from another book that I read recently.

" I loved men, the idea of men, and I did want one, a really really good one."
                   Hush from 'Sweet Hush' by Deborah Smith.

Onward and forward.
Oh gosh did I mention I have also applied for three jobs, interviewed for two and waiting to hear back on the one that I really want. The VCC work from home Lead. I want it and to be living in my house by March. Oh and one more thing...that fear, terror and terrified are no longer words in my vocabulary. Or at least they are no longer placed in front of words that hinder me.