"If I quieted the voices in my head I would face the day with nothing to write."

“The time to begin writing an article is when you have finished it to your satisfaction. By that time you begin to clearly and logically perceive what it is that you really want to say.” Mark Twain.

“And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don't believe in magic will never find it.”
― Roald Dahl
Key:
G-Unit=Grandpa
FLS=Favorite Little Sister
Sassy Red head=Shana
True Friend=Laura
Mermaid/Slo/Tripod/Chickas=Shannon 1

Spanish Princess/Tripod/Chicka/Vette =Yvette
#61=Youngest son
Mickey Blue Eyes=Oldest son.
BFTP (Blast from the past)/The last Frontier=gone
Big Jim as himself
Vitamin C as himself
G-Man=Garth/Bossman.

Nick as himself

Saturday, April 28, 2012

Sap



Holy holy, that last post was pure and sappy. But hey I guess it was what I was feeling that day. Today I'm thrilled with my new office and the desire to finish Curador. Took a picture of the new office after making #61 a healthy breakfast of scrambled eggs, toast and hash browns. He spent the night and we spent more time looking for a movie to watch then taking the time to watch it.

Lovely morning in the hood. Mt. Baldy is still casting off cool breezes till the snow melts, but the day is sunny and I'm writing this blog from my house and even with the panic of budget deficit and muttering the only thing I can think of "God will provide." I'm absolutely thrilled to be in my own digs with my stuff surrounding me.

This is the third weekend in my house and I have one more full day in it, before I have to make that bittersweet trek back to the desert. Today's agenda is to write, deep clean, maybe do some more yard work. It's daunting to look at all the projects I really need to work on; my house needs painted, the yard needs a serious amount of work, staining needs to be done and then more staining needs to be done, wood floors need to be installed and then some more staining needs to be done.

The brisk mountain air makes me excited and tired all in the same breath. It's good to be home. Life has come full circle and yes the answers lie here. The big question of the day yesterday was; is my intuition of feeling all these emotions towards a man, intuition or a portent of understanding him and myself better and finally coming full circle. I know that I cannot live without him in my life he is to good of a friend and we have been writing for months now but will that change or just be what it is.

It just happens.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012


Oh my it has been a while...

But have been busy... so very busy. Moving back into my house, working and commuting, research and writing and maybe falling in love with self, life and hope.

I just finished my favorite authors (Barbara O'Neal's) new book titled the 'The Garden of Happy Endings.' It instilled hope, faith and love for all things in my life. Just a beautiful book she has written, yet once again.

I have been writing and keeping in touch with that someone so special to me, he makes me ache with wanting him in my life so very badly. Everyday upon waking his name is on my lips, every night I whisper an endearment to him so far away. Every night before I fall asleep I wish and say "show me." Only to awake with the feeling of not being shown, but thinking of him and saying his name without dreaming of him. Strange... but so very me.

Long days of figuring things out. Long days of learning to let go of manipulation. Letting things just be and being patient toward living into the answers. They will come.