The sounds of warfare filter through my house, my baby boy is living here again. He is good company. I love his quiet soul. He loves warfare and the sound of him playing war online is oddly comforting.
The week has been good the days get easier and easier. But I had to read my happy post and other posts to remember why I'm putting myself through this. Kelly has been my biggest supporter and I would have never made it through this without her.
The other day I was wishing I could find a man that met all the criteria. Well I have one in mind but he is not yet back in town. He is supposed to call when he does. I have a saw that belongs to the house he lives in and he is going to help me move it. And I just want a man, right away. I have been grieving but just ready to go back out there and try again. But how does one find one really?
On Tuesday I walked outside to water the garden and right in my neighbors yard was a hot guy. Marilyn the neighbor says. "Shannon, I'm so happy to see you! Come meet my son Matt." So I did, and he was so damn cute and I was so damn attracted to him I blushed and lost my words.
The following morning I'm outside watering the garden and a hot guy walks down the alley stops and says Hi. Apparently I can just grow them in my garden. Internally my heart is still broken and torn. But I will win the war against myself and a man that doesn't love me.
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